つれづれなるままに

Again those years run on by

My mind filling up with only family

"Ayano now 's your big sister everyone"

"so try to get along with her for me please"

Little house of crimson brick, we all had fit inside of that place

To and fro they whispered back, making plans of their own so it seemed

Looking deep into their eyes, so red in all three and then I see

Hidden just beneath are memories grown ups never see

Terror in his face he said "I'm a monster deep inside" filled with fear

But they're wrong and so I said "That's not true at all, just look here"

"That red you hate so much, a hero wears it proud! No really"

"It's okay, no need to be afraid anymore"

Thinking of what'd be fun, or might be dumb,

I was a big sister and tried my best to

"Hey guys, look over here!" A crimson muffler I wrapped around me

"A secret brigade -er something"

Dye it in madder of roses, so we can begin

Just because we play heroes, it doesn't mean nothing

"So maybe just a little we'll smile again"

And always be one big happy family

I hope they're happy and laughing at every new day

And if they just couldn't take it, they wont run away

"Now listen close, hear this secret for you"

And so the sun sets on a day fun and new

Blowing spring into the air, the adult world we knew was changing too

Something wrong I couldn't see, like a plan of their own so it seemed

Billow tears and fade away, the people that I love keep crying out

No one seems to notice but it's all dying into black

It's all gone wrong, but now I knew deep down

I couldn't tell a single soul how I felt

"God no, oh please don't destroy what I had found"

In came a world where our happiness died and flew out

Oh madder red no, I beg you, can take no more

Why can't you stop breaking futures so there'll be tomorrow?

The tears never stop falling the answer is clear

Hiding behind smiles from ear to ear

If they were my eyes, such red eyes, I wonder could I

be their one and only hero who saves their future?

I'm clumsy awkward and shameful no less

But on this mission, I must go alone...

Now I'm gone and wonder what the brigade is doing now and hope again

They're smiling all the time and they're getting along with each other

They probably hate me now or maybe just hurt

I wonder, have I become for them their big sister by now?

Will you remember the word I loved with every bit inside me?

That "happiness" ah how strange it is, the feeling

And as tomorrow breaks, I hope you love it too

lyrics by Juby Phonic
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Running by all those arid days

Where each day is the same

Sitting alone just one desk too far away from sunlight

"Well, what are you waiting for?"

As if it's quizzing me

Batting an eye lash at that textbook with no answers

Aah

If you wanted to know my grades

I guess I'd say "The same."

I don't know why they make these tests so very easy

While you smiled at me timidly

You sat right next to me

Keeping a grin all while you held closely such a bad grade

Out beyond the sky, I just can't help but sigh

Maybe it's because I see the world for all it is

"Isn't that too sad? The world is much more fun! "

Back then, you always seemed so glad

I just can't take you

Playing with a heart that only wants to disappear

Once again, I can't find a thing that makes me want to remain here

Ringing in a tone that only whispers " You're a cruel and callous fool"

And even then...I know it's kinda true

So even if a miracle occurred and somehow answered all of this

Surley in ten or twenty seconds I could figure just a bit

Even if I die right now I know that I will soon just be replaced

And then again, saying crazy things like that, isn't it just silly?

Flying by those airy days

Where each day is the same

When you were gone that space started making me uneasy

Well 'nuff said anyway, my test scores stay the same

Even alone I know all the answers to the problems

Aah

As I ran through those hazy days

There must have been a change

I couldn't see your tree in the forest of the problems

That shade of your flowing hair

That smile, without a care

It's likely that most of them will forget it in a heartbeat

That empty desk I'm by, and out the pane of sky

What is it that I am waiting to be echoed back?

Even though I tried, your words would pass me by

In the end, I didn't solve a thing at all

By getting just a little closer to you, I think I could find it out

Just so these days would never ever have to end without a doubt

Ringing in a tone that slowly died and will never restart again

And all at once, I know everything is gone

She couldn't take it

Living with a heart that only wants to disappear

Keeping her feelings hid behind a smile that stretched from ear to ear

Even when the smile had folded up and died from soaring from the window

Even then, I don't think that I'll forget, such a pretty smile

lyrics by Juby Phonic
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Tragedy ridden, never fit in, and dead now

A life gone so quickly, would it knock at the door?

Fidgeting itty bitty master watches "Oh what an ugly tale"

Sprawling and crawling down the body and throat

Melting away the decaying and beaten down heart

Drink in and sink in every bit of your life

I'm hungry for your eyes

Hey, it's all that you had wanted and more

And then you stared a scary glare into my core

A bleeding tragic heart before me and I'm starving

You're in the belly of the beast

Love and your ego rest in peace

And the "weird" little you, will soon then be born anew

Just a monster by now I am loving it I cant deny but

Crying to god you scream out "Why?"

"Stop this already" you just whine

Will you suck it up now? This fate cannot be unwound

Succeeding, succeeding, succeeding, boss-to-be, can't wait to meet

Fate, dream, and, live and, think and, die on the ground now

They fall so in love then watch it come falling down

Softly he's snickering, the smiling snake

"How stupid can they be?"

Ah ta-ta-tell me why I can't get enough

Gotta break it, the shaking hearts that never give up

Haunting their tauntingly inadequate lives

I'm buried in their eyes

Right, it's living in you, crawling inside?

The power digging deep, able to "meet their eyes"

In this cold as stone, real tragedy, you'd be the queen

Cheers to the years and life you made

Love and your ego slip and snake

Hazy days all around as they come billowing down

Back to page one where this story started really getting gory

"Please, give it back!" you screech and scream

"Stop this already" quite the plea

Oh you think that I care? Well life's just one fated snare

Welcome to horrible, pitiful, fictional, reality

Ah what a stupid way to live

Try try again you just resist

Wanna turn back the page, reset the actors on stage

Knock knock it down as you're heaving

Howling, even louder screaming

Ah what an ugly way live!

Don't even ask me "Why" again

You're just bleeding with greed, and doing time for the crime

Believing miracles empty, breaking into pieces plenty

"Done with it all! I just don't care"

Helpless and crying, you sit there

But that's all I will say, THE END is fading away

Day after, day after, kids of tomorrow

Day after, day after, sunset

Day after, day after, day after, laugh in the haze!

lyrics by Juby Phonic
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A summer breeze comes knocking again

I open up just to let in the sun

And all I hear are those fleeting tweeting notes they carry away

A half read book I place to the side

"Hey little guy, where on earth are you from" with a smile

And with me blindfolded I still know that it's 3 after noon

I know how simple this world it seems

And yes I know, that it's me who is weird

But even I have to wonder why I cant just be like the rest

And far away and out of their sight,

there is a house in the forest of trees hid away

And can you bet there no one crazy enough to stop by

Don't look in their eyes!

A heart so cold became ice, I guess that I wasn't able to make a friend

And all I see everyday can never be much more than a thing

The world outside there is made from pictures in books

So please could you forgive me thinking such terrible things

Will someone please let me see with my own eyes?

Long long long since before I was born

It's always been an inside out world but there was burning

Life inside me

I knew it'd never it'd never go out

Hey hey, when will that knock ever come?

I just cant wait to see what kind of future is out there

I'll wait to hear the sound

Knocking a beautiful call at my door

Dreams about what life would be like

As I stare faraway in a daze

And just then, I could hear soft calling of a voice in the wind

I take a leap back and knock down my tea

And of course, it's all over the desk

"What can I do?"

As I stare at the door without a thing in the way

"Don't look in their eyes...or they'll be turned into stone."

My parents always had earnestly told me this

And surely my eyes were to be treated in just the same way

And just as stories go, the people will run far away

But I don't blame them being way too afraid

The world was just not to love someone like me

Knock Knock Knock and the sound is loud

Although I'd never heard a knock upon my door so

I was so scared

Oh god I need to think straight

Hey hey, hearing a knock at my door

I never thought that I would ever hear such beating

And just so easily

It opened to leave me exposed and alone

And then finding me cowering hiding eyes away

That person was of course to be surprised

"Don't look in my eyes...petrified...you'll turn to stone"

I tried to speak but he just smiled back.

"I was just like you, I was scared of living life

so scared that I would turn completely stone

But living in a world where no one is ever scared,

now wouldn't that be nice?

Now now now, from a spark inside

I had imagined a new world for me to live in

Where they love me I feel it ringing out now

Hey hey, what does this world look like

I wanna know please tell me just how then can I get there

So if I'm ever lost

Hey will you search for me once again?

A summer breeze comes knocking again

Blowing the hood that you graciously gave

Let it blow as you finally see such a beautiful smile

Sing: Ham

JubyPhonic-P's ver. (Lyrics here!)

Lizz's ver: here

Wing's piano arrange: here

Illust: うめいと