つれづれなるままに

undead, dear alice darling

“you wanna die, and yet you can’t - so why

don’t you just feed on me so you can stay alive”

the both of us are the only sane ones here

although your voice is heard by people far and near

i wanna hurt myself and ask you how

i breathe in happiness and breathe out poison clouds

a perfect junkie hooked on big ideals

isn’t it great that we’re the only sane ones here?

wanna see you but i don’t really want to

but not seeing you puts me in a bad mood

conflicting emotions click

this is really torture

lately i’ve been hating all these butterflies

so i’m asking you nicely to die before i

i kill you myself

so live your life out, it’s fine to cry out

be free to break it, and be afraid ‘cuz

this love is weak, so let’s just bury it deep

forget it happened, laugh and stop - we’re getting too deep

it’s way too easy to hate, you see

you weigh me down with love but that’s the way we’ll always be

for your smile that’s vanishing

undead, dear alice darling

it’s as i thought, the more i chase my dreams

the more the thought of you starts breaking at the seams

endurance, sacrifice, it’s all the same

turning you gently with these hands so full of stains

i tried so hard to keep you good and free

but it just made you break up even more it seems

this love’s a frozen moment kept in time

“turn up the heat” i say, this is the hundredth time

wanna be good baked in every instinct

wanna be bad is basting in its own sick

conflicting emotions click

this is really torture

lately i’ve been living out a white lie

so i’m asking you nicely can i die before i

i murder myself

so live your life out, it’s fine to cry out

be free to break it, and be afraid ‘cuz

this love is weak, so let’s just bury it deep

forget it happened, laugh and stop - we’re getting too deep

it’s way too easy to hate, you see

you weigh me down with love but that’s the way we’ll always be

for your smile that’s vanishing

undead, dear alice darling

i thought that we could stay

forever in this dream we saw together

but it was all in vain

when i can’t call your smile to mind, i can’t remember

it’d be a lie to say

that this could all be over if we just restart

ah, this is such a pain

[it’d] be better if you sliced open my chest and crushed my heart

so live your life out, it’s fine to cry out

be free to break it, and be afraid ‘cuz

this love is weak, so let’s just bury it deep

forget it happened, laugh and stop - we’re getting too deep

it’s way too easy to hate, you see

you weigh me down with love but that’s the way we’ll always be

for your smile that’s vanishing

undead, dear alice, be -

it’s all the same to me!!

this pain is awful but i won’t just die from it

our time is over but i won’t give up just yet

the shame is making “sorry” harder to say

but even “we’ll look back this way and laugh at it all one day”

is wrong, it’s not right. so which is right?

is it belief or grief that is keeping you alive?

for your smile that’s vanishing

undead, dear alice darling